I guess you could says I'm in an odd place, completely healthy and yet seeing doctors and surgeons by the arm load, paying buckets of money for tests that I question are even necessary, but these same doctors seem to revel in the results. I've completely changed my diet to cancer and tumor prevention. There is no cheesecake this summer. I am shockingly happy to do it. I'm now viewing surgery options to remain healthy in degrees of severity, laproscopy, no big deal, recovery time only 1 week. Mastectomies with 6-9 months of follow up before it is all complete, we can leave that at "bigger deal". Eight weeks ago, any surgery would have been out of the question. Now, everything is on the table. But all of this is out there, in the future, not for today.
Today, I am giddy at the prospect of a day at the free sprinkler park toting peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the girls, and a luke warm salad for me. The girls play carefree in the water and climb a spider web of rope. I am reminded that this is how their lives should be. This is how OUR lives should be.
As I tune out the other families, I can see the girls as other people often see them. They are absolutely gorgeous in every way. They are beautiful in that they share sandwiches without fighting, They are amazingly strong, climbing all that rope. They let simple water spouting up from the ground entertain them for hours. They adore the fact that they have matching pink crocs.
And this is why it's shaping up to be a great summer.